Life is a beautiful, heartbreaking adventure…and I'm just along for the ride. These are my observations, commentaries, beliefs and feelings regarding this journey I and we are on.
Forgive me the fall
of the then rising sun
as the blood in my soul
runs cold
looking inside myself
seeing dreams
fall like stars
as they had once
called me eyes to gaze upon them
the light fading
while they once bathed me
in bright light
and in passion
and hope
only now has their
illumination transformed
into burden and weight
dread upon my shoulders
and heart
pulling me down
with the gravity of my fears.
(written 2005)
in a crowded room
that’s nearly empty
noises so loud
they can barely be heard
voices and laughter
silent and dark
walking and dancing
on an untouched floor
hugs of compassion
in a place full of hate
seeking for what used to be
that has come to an end
sitting in the corner
and wondering why
1998
Wanna go to someplace crazy?
Like a dream that’s warm and lazy?
Well no need for you to travel far.
You need no plane or train or car.
Just close your eyes and make believe.
And from the normal you will leave.
Into a land that’s all your own.
Where nonsense is and logic’s blown.
Create a world for only you.
Where you can do what you wish to.
Where no one can bug you or make you upset.
And the more you imagine the better it gets.
When the everyday world gets too out of hand.
You can escape from it all to your own special land.
Swing from a moonbeam.
Dive from a star.
Into infinity.
Contained in a jar.
Make up all the rules.
And then break them at will.
Do what you wish if it gives you a thrill.
And when you’re thought to be strange,
As you look off into space.
They’re the ones missing out on your wonderful place.
1997
(image used is my original artwork)
dizzy patterns on the wall
forms a tunnel down the hall
tipsy topsy and a turn
makes my stomach bounce and burn
plastic rainbow colored grass
on the floor thats made of glass
mushrooms sprouting here and there
tye-dyed frogs all leap in pairs
reaching up are cosmic vines
dancing, twisting, intertwines
a rainbow released from the tip
roots beneath that make me trip
pastel and flourescent waters
waves up and down like teeter-totters
transluscent ships composed of pearls
gliding over dips and whirls
being chased is not much fun
get up on my feet and run
running, running through this nation
welcome…to my imagination
1997
(image used is my original artwork)
You left an entire decade ago
A whole tenth of a century has passed
It seems like an entire lifetime ago
But it seems too that I’ve grown way too fast
I’m twenty now
Did you know?
Do you know the time in Heaven?
It probably feels like you’ve only just left
That I’m just a year shy of eleven
But I’m ten years older now, Buddy
An adult
Too big now to sit on your knee
I’ve earned a high school diploma
Work a full-time job
And even have a college degree
I’ve had a lot of experiences
And learned many things
Such as happiness always has a price
But pain is tossed out to you free
But that’s just one of many
I wish you could see
What I’ve done
What I look like
And of what I dream
I wish that I could hear you
Because I’ve forgotten how you sound
I just hope that wherever you are
You can see me and are proud.
2001
Beneath the world I do dwell
And of this place I try to tell
So open up your seeking mind
And listen as my tale unwinds
Once on the surface I did live
A place where no one could forgive
Each person violent
Cruel and rude
The way of life was foul and crude
Dark and dank the brown grass died
To resurrect it no one tried
Ignoring all the ailing beings
Blind to all that they were seeing
No longer could I live in pain
Of knowing hatred and disdain
So leaving at a brightening dawn
I left all behind and then moved on
To find a life of colors bright
To live long and happy in the light
Walking down a sheltered cave
Peaceful, quiet, like a grave
I traveled on by curious thought
To the place where I’ve been brought
Opening up to a land unknown
Where tall and green the grass is grown
Flowers bright and colors galore
Shades I had never seen before
Cerulean skies cradling clouds
And from the sun warm rays shroud
All the brilliance in this land
Warming every grain of sand
Along the shores of sparkling lakes
All the beauty my eyes intake
My soul engulfs the peaceful air
I run free without a care
As in this place I’ve closed the gate
To that world above in a melancholy state.
1997
Image used is my original artwork.
Paper thin wings
With a hint of uncertainty
Fluttering in my stomach
Getting jammed in my heart
Taking all of my breath away
With your dreams and desires
With your passion and innocence
Love, hatred and indifference
Of your many-layered beauty
Gossamer wings glistening brightly
Reflected aged light
From the Sun
That though far
Felt near on that day
A feeling I carry with me
Wrapped up tight in my pocket
Of this ragged old coat that I wear
To bring back to me the feeling
Of belonging
Acceptance
Fun
And laughter
And even the sunlight
With her mocking brightness
Follows me
When I am trudging down an unfriendly foreign street
Miserable
But fulfilling my dreams.
2003
