Songs without Music (Poetry): Heavy Stars

Forgive me the fall

of the then rising sun

as the blood in my soul

runs cold

looking inside myself

seeing dreams

fall like stars

as they had once

called me eyes to gaze upon them

the light fading

while they once bathed me

in bright light

and in passion

and hope

only now has their

illumination transformed

into burden and weight

dread upon my shoulders

and heart

pulling me down

with the gravity of my fears.

(written 2005)

Songs Without Music–Poetry: Your Place

Wanna go to someplace crazy?
Like a dream that’s warm and lazy?
Well no need for you to travel far.
You need no plane or train or car.
Just close your eyes and make believe.
And from the normal you will leave.
Into a land that’s all your own.
Where nonsense is and logic’s blown.
Create a world for only you.
Where you can do what you wish to.
Where no one can bug you or make you upset.
And the more you imagine the better it gets.
When the everyday world gets too out of hand.
You can escape from it all to your own special land.
Swing from a moonbeam.
Dive from a star.
Into infinity.
Contained in a jar.
Make up all the rules.
And then break them at will.
Do what you wish if it gives you a thrill.
And when you’re thought to be strange,
As you look off into space.
They’re the ones missing out on your wonderful place.

1997

(image used is my original artwork)

Songs Without Music–Poetry: Welcome

dizzy patterns on the wall
forms a tunnel down the hall
tipsy topsy and a turn
makes my stomach bounce and burn
plastic rainbow colored grass
on the floor thats made of glass
mushrooms sprouting here and there
tye-dyed frogs all leap in pairs
reaching up are cosmic vines
dancing, twisting, intertwines
a rainbow released from the tip
roots beneath that make me trip
pastel and flourescent waters
waves up and down like teeter-totters
transluscent ships composed of pearls
gliding over dips and whirls
being chased is not much fun
get up on my feet and run
running, running through this nation
welcome…to my imagination

1997

(image used is my original artwork)

Songs Without Music–Poetry: Buddy

You left an entire decade ago

A whole tenth of a century has passed

It seems like an entire lifetime ago

But it seems too that I’ve grown way too fast

I’m twenty now

Did you know?

Do you know the time in Heaven?

It probably feels like you’ve only just left

That I’m just a year shy of eleven

But I’m ten years older now, Buddy

An adult

Too big now to sit on your knee

I’ve earned a high school diploma

Work a full-time job

And even have a college degree

I’ve had a lot of experiences

And learned many things

Such as happiness always has a price

But pain is tossed out to you free

But that’s just one of many

I wish you could see

What I’ve done

What I look like

And of what I dream

I wish that I could hear you

Because I’ve forgotten how you sound

I just hope that wherever you are

You can see me and are proud.

 

2001

Songs Without Music–Poetry: To a Land Unknown

Beneath the world I do dwell

And of this place I try to tell

So open up your seeking mind

And listen as my tale unwinds

 

Once on the surface I did live

A place where no one could forgive

Each person violent

Cruel and rude

The way of life was foul and crude

Dark and dank the brown grass died

To resurrect it no one tried

Ignoring all the ailing beings

Blind to all that they were seeing

No longer could I live in pain

Of knowing hatred and disdain

So leaving at a brightening dawn

I left all behind and then moved on

To find a life of colors bright

To live long and happy in the light

Walking down a sheltered cave

Peaceful, quiet, like a grave

I traveled on by curious thought

To the place where I’ve been brought

Opening up to a land unknown

Where tall and green the grass is grown

Flowers bright and colors galore

Shades I had never seen before

Cerulean skies cradling clouds

And from the sun warm rays shroud

All the brilliance in this land

Warming every grain of sand

Along the shores of sparkling lakes

All the beauty my eyes intake

My soul engulfs the peaceful air

I run free without a care

As in this place I’ve closed the gate

To that world above in a melancholy state.

 

1997

Image used is my original artwork.

Songs Without Music–My Poetry: Taking it With Me

Paper thin wings

With a hint of uncertainty

Fluttering in my stomach

Getting jammed in my heart

Taking all of my breath away

With your dreams and desires

With your passion and innocence

 

Love, hatred and indifference

Of your many-layered beauty

Gossamer wings glistening brightly

Reflected aged light

From the Sun

That though far

Felt near on that day

 

A feeling I carry with me

Wrapped up tight in my pocket

Of this ragged old coat that I wear

To bring back to me the feeling

Of belonging

Acceptance

Fun

And laughter

And even the sunlight

With her mocking brightness

Follows me

When I am trudging down an unfriendly foreign street

Miserable

But fulfilling my dreams.

 

2003